where are we now?

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i tried to write a letter today.
    i didn't know i was this sad until i sat down and tried to murmur your name.
    these wrinkles on my face had to get here somehow.

the sky wept sunlight upon me and i laid down to rest.
(i wouldn't call it rest anymore.
it hurt more than keeping busy.)

i cried out your name! oh my brother! come back to me!
come                back.

like a clock striking the hour, my heart beat inside my chest.
this is not the end, i told myself. not the end.
not      the     end.  
(but it feels like it.)

all the sudden i am running around and around.
calling out your name. calling out these words.
i can't handle this.

when did it get so hard?
when did she start to cry?
when did we say goodbye?
when did fire burn our hearts?
when did i realize i loved you?

(hope reigns. hold on to that.)