frozen

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cold falls upon me as i sleep,
and i realize that nightmares are a type of hypothermia.
the rain froze and turned to snow.
sleep leaves and i am left curling up
underneath the blanket.

it is morning and i greet it with a laugh,
light is warmth to my heart if not the wind.
but as soon as night falls,
i am too exhausted for laughter.
my lamp on in the room,
and frost covering the windows.

there is love left in me still

though i may not feel it now

air is caught up in my lungs

i manage a breath

today i realized i am an in between

in between having a home and losing it

in between missing you and running away

in between loving and resenting

there are twos to everything

and i am 

one of them

my veins are clogged with ice,

and my body is tired with

the weight

of warming my blood enough

to wash it away.

.c.d.