A Letter to my Boys

to you crazy boys. 

there have been surrender letters. there have been words spoken from other people and written on your shirt.

but today, i write a letter to you. one that you will probably never see or hear of.

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i don't think i realized how much i loved you all until recently. yeah, sure, you can be dumb. you can say the wrong things and hurt each other and just run the wrong way.

it's funny because i've seen you also offer food to the hungry, ask what's wrong, and sing to the Lord. you've let a piece of you slip and show.

that's how i know there's still hope for you.

that's how i know that God has you.

some days i think i've lost you. some days i can't even bear thinking about you. it hurts too much to watch you sink in that sea.

especially when you say that you don't need help.

it's hard for me to surrender you. oh, how hard it is, i know i can't save you, but a part of me wants to. i want to see your eyes shine with the joy of the Lord and not under the pressure of it all.

i know you're too far gone for me to save you. in fact, i could never save you.

so i'm surrendering you, oh my boys.

because there is hope. i have seen it. you have felt it.

He has you now.

i love you.

don't die.

thanks.

signed,
me.