fireworks

the fireworks lit up the sky

causing the world to look towards them

oh, how bright. 

but my eyes were drawn to the clouds

the puffs of smoke being left behind

little wisps of what once was

the gasps of little children find their way to my ears

and i laugh with them

untouched by the darkness of the world

for now, at least

the voices and words of the people surrounding me

"why do they have to scream?!?"

"it's just fireworks. ugh."

they have forgotten 

how they have forgotten

and stolen

the dreams of little children

gasp and laugh and believe 

keep on, please

don't listen to their words

don't open your ears to their lies

let these fireworks wash over your soul

be amazed at how big and loud they sound

and how small you are

don't expect more out of this world,

little child,

because it doesn't hold what they're looking for.

look to the Lord

and hold and grasp and believe in Him. 

A Letter to my Boys

to you crazy boys. 

there have been surrender letters. there have been words spoken from other people and written on your shirt.

but today, i write a letter to you. one that you will probably never see or hear of.

-

i don't think i realized how much i loved you all until recently. yeah, sure, you can be dumb. you can say the wrong things and hurt each other and just run the wrong way.

it's funny because i've seen you also offer food to the hungry, ask what's wrong, and sing to the Lord. you've let a piece of you slip and show.

that's how i know there's still hope for you.

that's how i know that God has you.

some days i think i've lost you. some days i can't even bear thinking about you. it hurts too much to watch you sink in that sea.

especially when you say that you don't need help.

it's hard for me to surrender you. oh, how hard it is, i know i can't save you, but a part of me wants to. i want to see your eyes shine with the joy of the Lord and not under the pressure of it all.

i know you're too far gone for me to save you. in fact, i could never save you.

so i'm surrendering you, oh my boys.

because there is hope. i have seen it. you have felt it.

He has you now.

i love you.

don't die.

thanks.

signed,
me.